I'm just being delusional
Wednesday, 24 October 2012 | 11:35 pm | 0 comments
Why is everyone asleep so early? ): I miss my primary school friends, where i can chat with them into the night, like 2-3am then hang off the phone. >< This isn't what i expected in secondary school life. Why does time pass so damn quickly. Yes, i do want the holidays. But i have like utterly NO PLANS. Which means i'll be rotting at home, dying of boredom which i hate so much . I want horse-riding lessons! But the price is so extravagant, $500++ just for 8 lessons, and 1 lesson is like 45mins-90mins. Wth? Its like so much shorter than tuition lessons. Psh . Fucked up world with weird logic. Uh huhh.
I've been sleeping so much, i'm confused between reality and dreams. Reading so much that i'm getting so delusional. Something i just can't put to words to describe. I feel like my life can be like so much more, like in those stories, tons of thrills awaiting. Yet, i'm stuck here. Falling in into the typical life of a average teen student, wake up in the morning > go school> survive the day > go home > do whatever > sleep > repeat cycle. Till what? Till the day i die and do the typical working adult routine? wake up > go work > go home > sleep > repeat cycle. ? I do not want that kinda life. It's plain and boring. So much that i wanna do/go.
I think i wouldn't mind risking a few years of my life to have thrill and adventure eh? Though i do fear death, can't imagine one day i'll be lying in a coffin. Gosh, scary, can't think of it. :/ ! But it's like, after death, what is it like? Is it like, blackout? The end, the moment you close your eyes, your senses are all shut, thats it. NO more of you? Or is there really heaven and hell? And if so, will we be stuck there? Like forever? And how long is forever? I mean, a million years is a waiting gauge, but forever is literally never ending, after don't know how many millions of millennium, you'll still be there? Like waiting for a train that's never gonna come. What if you're in hell? Never ending torture ? Or what? Questions , questions and more questions.
I also wanna know how big is a cloud. Ever thought of it? A plane is like so tiny in the sky, and kinda big when its on land beside us. So how big is a cloud exactly? It's already huge from so far, imagine if you're just beside it. Yeah, clouds arent't fluffy as most people think it is. Come on, the temperature there is like super low. Lower than freezing point is like a definite. So bet it's like all ice. But how are the shapes formed. And how are they changing by the wind? Which obviously means the air current there is gonna be like omg.
Ohmygee, i sound like some weirdo freak ! Better end off this post here.