Where did I go
Friday, 10 January 2014 | 4:29 pm | 0 comments
How many times have I ever blogged about wanting to revert back to the old me. Never am I able to keep up with that routine. Really miss the old me, the "dark" gloomy one. The me that doesn't give a shit about anyone. The one that doesn't get hurt. Blocking and pushing everyone out of my life. I miss that me. Easily hurt by friends nowadays, trusting people too easily. Why the hell am I doing that. Letting too many people into my life. Only realised this when my best friend hurt me badly emotionally 2 days ago by trusting someone else over me, and yeah, that caused a bad bad bad quarrel. I don't care if I was over sensitive or something, because I strongly believe I wasn't. Besides, no one is supposed to be able to affect me that badly ever, and no one ever had before that. Pet-phrase used to be: "Like I care?" And now i'm like socializing more than I ever had. This is just wrong.Eitherways, blog blog blog.
So, last night I guess I almost lucid dreamed? I don't know. Took a 5 hour nap in the evening and woke up at 10pm so i couldn't really sleep after that when I was supposed to. Was super irritated with my long fringe and therefore I cut it in front of the mirror at 3am+. Never ever heard of any superstitions regarding cutting hair in the middle of the night so I went along with it. Almost dozed off at around 4:30am+ but was suddenly alert for no apparent reason and felt a presence in my room looking at me, i didn't dare look directly at where the source of my uneasiness came from. So i tried to pull the covers above my face but apparently, I was paralyzed and I couldn't seem to close my eyes. Then, I had the chills starting from the tip of my toes slowly spreading upwards towards my torso and was shuddering terribly with bad goosebumps on both my arms. Approximately 10 seconds later, the chills dissipated, as well as the uneasiness and I could finally move.
Whether that was real or I dreamt it or just a friggin hallucination I don't know but blah. Just thought of sharing whatever that was since I couldn't even see a single shit, and I doubt I'd want to.
AZARATH METRION ZINTHOS
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