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Its one of those nights where you feel like just expressing your realest feelings to the world. The time where you feel like you can be your truest self and the somehow in the mood to share.

I've been trapped in a vortex of my own emotions the past few days, be it good or sad. Prolly you say I'm kinda figuring out my own identity, cliche huh, but well, i'm a teenager, what you expect? Or maybe just the past few hours but imposing  them onto my past few days.

Ah, have been typing the past 2 paragraphs on an galaxy note 8.0, really don't enjoy using such a huge device + android. (I'm usually bias, idk if this is the case as well). Ah, have a cotton on interview at nex in 11 hours. Dreading the interview but i want the job. Ugh what is this. I've totally lost track of my goal. My goal to move into an apartment on the esplanade/main beach street at gold coast Australia. I have to!!

Now that it's the holidays, i ought to find work and stuff huh. I'm just awfully lazy. Plus i just bought Pokemon alpha sapphire last Friday and i'm terribly affected, blame it on the silver haired dreamboat. (Steven stone) //game reference// Okay, so basically when it was exam period, i had so many shows and movies i wanted to watch, such as faking it, gossip girl, game of thrones, vampire diaries, etc. Now, i'm just lazing around the house, being absolutely bored, not reading the 3 books i borrowed from the library during exam period, and whats more is that they are from one of my few favourite trilogies and i'm not reading them!! THAT'S NOT ME. Ohgoodlord, someone help me get my mojo back. AUSTRALIA. Gotta keep my head in the game. //HSM REF//
 

Okay, i'm proud to say that i'm over my 2 year crush. Out of sight, out of mind. It really worked! Ever since school ended, i don't see him anymore and thus, OUT OF MIND. //throws confetti//!!! I'M FREE! The feeling of longing and unwillingness to let go of such lasting feeling and obsession is there, but at least there ain't no more crush!! YAY! 

Haha, credits to graduation + steven stone! Who needs real guys with a virtual steven stone around?!?!

Spent the last 5 hours watching world's strictest parents and wife swap. HAHA, so dramatic i can't even. World strictest parents really got me thinking what i wanted to do with my life and regain focus on saving for my own apartment. I'm not rebellious, just stubborn, but seeing them crazy kids sent to different parts of the world to be groomed into a more disciplined self really kinda set me back into the "if they can do it, so can you" mode. Weird huh, idk. Tbh, i want to be sent to those ranch kinda houses like a Queensland episode and wolf creek in montana. SO COOL, always wanted to try leading those kinda lifestyle. Believe it or not, that was my ideal life + dream home style when i was 6-12years old. Thanks to 'My secret unicorn' by linda chapman. Was obsessed with Laura or Lauren's life!! I forgot her name. I wanted to stay in a ranch by the countryside and have my own horse and stuff. Sigh, being stuck in Singapore has limitations y'know. Lmao, it ain't so bad but i'm still complaining. No adventure.

My eyes hurt as i'm typing in the dark, will do a new post about my idea life next time, maybe tonight. Let's see the vibe!