Once upon six roses
Wednesday, 14 January 2015 | 10:05 pm | 0 comments
Once upon six roses, where the world lived on old magick. Just a dream I had, really loved it, until my 12pm alarm woke me up. SIGH, it was wonderful. Especially when in that dream, the man I loved was there. I can't really remember his face, but wow, it was a great dream. He gave me six roses, I can't remember really the colour of them, it was either black and white, black and gold or white and gold. I don't want to elaborate too much on the dream, it's embarrassing to share to the world, but, NOTHING SEXUAL. None at all. But the setting was really medieval, like those behind the old castle garden scene. The best I can describe it would be those of Taylor Swift's Love Story MV, those kinda background from 1:39 onwards, that garden. But much gloomier and there was like a tower there.
ANYWAY, remember how much prom meant to me a few months back. Omg, i'm literally laughing @ myself. LIKE WOW, WHAT A WASTE OF TIME. It was great, it was fun, it wasn't 10/10 but it was good. I kinda miss it but, looking @ my bank account. ;_; I spent so much money on it, i do absolutely love my dress though! Royal blue, what's not to like. Mom thought my prom date was my boyfriend, HA, I WISH MOM. I WISH. But NOT ANYMORE.Also, I'm just feeling like I really want a new life yknow. New friends, new life, new perspective, new attitude, new everything. I'm so sick of this, not that I don't like it, I just want to try something new and be different yknow. Even my room is painted orange. Like whut, I know. I never thought that day would ever come. I want to get rid of my entire contact list and not keep a single old friend, I want to change my handphone number and never contact anyone from my past ever again. Those kinda stuff, but ugh, should I really??? Plus, I REALLY LOVE MY HP NUMBER! It has been with me since I was 7.
Oh, and I'm really interested in republic poly's courses, such as integrated events management, pharmaceutical science, marine science & aquaculture, etc. But I really don't know should I go for it. Because everyone is telling me how lousy that school is and how i should never enter it. I mean, a little support would be nice right?? Because I really wanted to enter that course and my score isn't high enough to let me enter such courses at Np, Sp or Tp. So friends telling me not to go into RP because it's a 'lousy' school are like making me feel worse. R U GUYS REALLY EVEN FRIENDS. C'MON.From 2014, I learnt that being a good friend doesn't mean you can help them decide what is best for them based on your own thinking and mindset, because when you get too close to someone, you tend to forget to really be there to support and listen to them, and that what you want doesn't mean it's something that they want too. We tend to be quick to shut their opinion down, like "no you shouldn't do that" just because of what you think. WELL, something like that. u get the gist, but i guess I learnt how to listen more.
EITHERWAY, i don't really care about the schools anymore, just going for the course I like but idk which is really best for me. Don't know who to discuss it with. I kinda wanna discuss it w HIM, but OH WOW, HE'S A CONVO KILLER.