Break of dawn
Friday, 13 May 2016 | 11:18 pm | 0 comments
Never thought I'd actually feel academically stress until like, the usual "OMG, deadline coming up" kinda thing is going on.Meh, 2 reports to do for MSA, one worth 1k words, and the other 2k.
I'm a slacker. I know, and I like being one.
I feel so tired everyday, dear god.
Okay, last month I had my green belt grading. Fked it up, turned the wrong side for my basic kick. Sigh, was an emotional wreck for like 3-4 days, still affected by it, but not so much. Like, I know it's my fault, expecting a double is like 99.9% impossible and I have no choice but to accept it right? But still clinging onto that 0.1% of hope. Not like I can go up to the examiner and beg/bribe/threaten him.
Being in the same class as someone you terribly dislike it a terrible thing. I thought that I'll get over this unspoken feud with her but nope. Got, I don't know why. Am I intimidated by her? At times I guess. But there are also times I just look down on her with disdain and scorn. Can't help it, she basically exudes the air of "low-classiness".
I wonder why I can't be the person I really am in class. I'm like a totally different person in different environments and with different people. In taekwondo, i'm outspoken as hell. In class, i'm grouchy and quiet. As for in work..... it depends.
Been having pain on my right eyelid for 2 days now, am so afraid that i'm gonna develop a sty. Omg, I never want that. It looks hideous. Just no.
How long in advance do I have to apply for an internship, I have no idea. Afraid I'm like missing out.
I literally just woke up from a 3 hour nap 2 hours ago, and i'm tired again. Yesterday, I slept for 11hours. 8:30pm-7:30pm. Mmhmm, can you believe that.